"wait and see"

A little preface: When I arrived in Nashville, I wasn't really sure where I stood on religion. I simply neglected going to church every weekend. I "overslept" or "had too much homework." The last weekend of first semester, I took my roommate up on an offer to go to church with her. Every Sunday (that I've been in Nashville) since, I've attended Crosspoint Church.

The current theme of sermons in church this winter is "More." AKA, how can we get more out of our lives? More than a mediocre marriage, a job worth getting up for, the best for your family, etc. This briefly touched my belief of the majority of our lives being a "con." Somewhere along the way society fell into the school-job-married-children-retire chain. I honestly don't believe that structure is for everyone. The message of the sermon was "wait and see." Things will come to us in time, and we can't really hurry it along. So much of our lives is getting from point A to point B, and how we can get there faster...

...So I'm going to challenge myself to wait and see. There are so many huge question marks in my life right now. My education, my future career, my relationships, my living situation. I need to step back and in time, the results will come. They may not be what I thought, but they're the cards I'm dealt. I truly believe that God won't give me more than I can't handle. Maybe he could ease it up though?

In review, something inside of me is telling me that I was meant to be at that service on Sunday. So many people close to me are making huge life decisions right now and making a path for themselves. Some higher power made sure I heard the words Pete Wilson had to say on Sunday. And I'm going to make the best of every single one of them. By the way, I still don't know what I'm doing in religion.

I'll close with lyrics by one of my best friends. She articulates it well:

In just an earth's blink
I'll search for my life's link
In just a quick time
I know there's something to find

So I gotta make a change while I'm still here
I gotta be remembered somewhere
I wanna see the world with open eyes
I want to help someone with their life

I love you all more than I could say
We are just one at the end of the day
Life is beyond us, but not the truth
I'll be honest:
I swear I won't fail you.
-Christine Jamra