a little lifechanging

Thursday night I had the opportunity to see the fabulous Lissie perform at the Mercy Lounge here in Nashville. I was so blown away by this girl's talent. I had already listened to and loved her releases Why You Runnin and Catching a Tiger, but getting to see these songs live was something truly amazing. So many of her words hit home with me, and I'm going to share some. Sometimes live music is a little lifechanging.

I'm tired of saying that I won't get lost ever again
Who knows...maybe I will
And everywhere I go, there I'll be
With a rusted old rake in a pile of leaves
Oh my, truly daunting

I feel as if everytime I've made a mistake in life, I tell myself "this is the last time. Get on the right path now." But the truth is, I'm never going to be on the right path. Life is trial and error. There's always a mountain to tackle, and all you have is your bare hands (or a rusty rake).


Fast asleep, where I keep my memories
He's calling me out in dreams, he visits me
What will be; Will I see him again soon?
Why am I so terrified of waking?
He's gone and I feel I've been forsaken
In sleep is the only place I get to see him,
Get to love him, be with him...

I know this couldn't possibly have been Lissie's intention in writing this song, but I can't listen to it without thinking about my dad. It seems as if the only place I can be close my dad is in my dreams. And this chorus is exactly what it's like.



Run, ragged and wrecked
Catchin a tiger, baitin a bully
Was this my idea? Is it a mistake?
Why did you take me here?
Am I too far from home? Am I really all alone?

Walk, child don't run
Go off and have fun, we'll be waiting
Just look before you cross
Take love with the loss
I know it's frustrating

The world is yours, carry your torch
All of us who turned into you
We're sure hoping that you pull on through

Being 500 miles away from home in a new city is exciting and scary at the same time. This song ("Bully") is a combination of my thought process and what I'd like to believe is my mother's.



I said I wanna try it all without regrets
I wanna meet the kind of folks I've never met
People said we'd have to make it on our own
We never thought there'd be a hand to hold
...They're telling our story on the radio

I fell in love with being defiant
In a pickup truck that roared like a lion
And when you're with us you don't have to be quiet no more...

In my final months of highschool, I found the people I could be myself around, and this is how I feel about them. I'm hoping I can find those people here at Belmont too.


I'll fall on my knees...tell me how's the way to be.
Tell me how's the way to go...tell me all that I should know

Danger will follow me everywhere I go
Angels will call on me and take me to my home
This tired mind just wants to be led home

We all want answers and we all want the most out of life. That's safe to say, right?



Thank you Elisabeth Maurus for writing the words that you do.